If not now ,When ?

I often am tempted to start every post with the word 'wow' 

But today , everything feels far and drifted 

It's like rowing against a very strong under current 

I keep paddling but I don't seem to reach where I wanna be 

But then again , I know .. everything will be fine :)

This is a little piece I wanna share 

It is not aimed at anyone and is not related to anything

Used to sit staring out at the rainbows

Pictured myself surfing it , from one side to the other

Me , my rip curls and waving dreads

Vibrant colours , erratic and inconceivable

Little did I expect I’d meet someone

Instead of surfing , I was sitting there with

Looking down on the marvel , smiling wide

Ideal , picture perfect where time was perpetuity

Rampaging through bamboo forests

I saw you grin with that dimple

As we took tenure of our new found glory

The birds sang to our new peak of emotions

Love how life settles in when you least expect

You brought comfort and assurance

Ideally fit in that one missing puzzle

The depiction of waking up feeling absolute

Do you remember climbing those rocks

Sitting there while the sunset over the hills

You didn’t have to say much

Although it felt like I knew you from somewhere

An awakening , an inspiration to chase my reveries

Feeling where dreams were made possible again

A shadow to match and a hand to hold

A stranger within and a collective soul

Watching you smile time and time again

As you often parked yourself perfectly next to me

Eyes glowing with a million mysteries

Being together really felt like eternity

Waking up everyday feeling like I had everything I ever wanted

As you lay there next to me , our hands still in one piece

So much has changed , I feel like I am losing myself

What the fuck really just happened

I am gonna miss you ..

We meet some people in our lives for a reason

Although I wish we had moved on a different bearing

I am longing for you to keep that smile

That smirk that I could draw – almost perfectly

It could not have been more wonderful

But now is time for me to leave this space

The past we shall carry with awesome memories

I love you baby . If not now , when ?